Crossposts: http://daichin.livejournal.com/22136.html

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BAKIT AYAW KO SA CYBERCRIME LAW?

KAYA LANG NAMAN AKO AGAINST SA CYBERCRIME LAW KASI AYOKONG MAWALA TONG ACCOUNT NA TO :((
Hindi ko to masagot sa Hum prof ko kanina kasi ihing ihi na ko. Hirap na hirap na ko magpigil. Hahaha. Nakakahiya e no. Pero kasi e, hindi naman makatarungan! Pag lahat ng kaibigan ko busy wala na kong matatakbuhan. Andami ko pa namang nasasabi pag galit o depressed ako... dinadamay ko lahat ng problema sa mundo. Freedom ko ho yun! Kung hindi ko gagawen baka maipon at magsuicide ako. >:D Chos!

Crossposts: http://daichin.livejournal.com/21824.html

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buhay ay life

HAHAHAHAHA!

E magkakatropa yung mga crush ko! Tatlo sila. Tinawag ako nung isa, si B. Tapos nag-bakit ako.. pero nakatingin ako kay A, tapos kay C.. HAHAHA kahit asa gitna si B. Omygash lang. Ang lande ko! LOLOLOL

Crossposts: http://daichin.livejournal.com/21686.html

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buhay ay life

"MAHAL MU NA NO?"

- Pinaka nakakalito at nakakaintrigang pangasar ng mga kaibigan mo. Puto anyone?

Crossposts: http://daichin.livejournal.com/21462.html

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buhay ay life,
fmfl

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Ayoko pa naman sa lahat yung kabigan mo biglabigla kang hindi papansinin. Sana man lang sinasabi sayo kung may problema kayo diba. Imba man. Naiipon na po ang mga ganitong tao sa paligid ko. Sana naman tulungan niyo kong itama kung may nagawa man akong mali. Maraming salamat!

Crossposts: http://daichin.livejournal.com/21123.html

PRIESTESS, I MISS YOU

I don't know why. I am over you. But I miss you.

Crossposts: http://daichin.livejournal.com/20981.html

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a day,
harry potter

Harry Potterish

Just finished rewatching Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban.
Buckbeak reminds me so much of that massive bird flying even if it's raining which I saw from the rooftop of Jham's dormitory.
(It was that night that we decided to drink. Funny thing is, I put cream soda and coors light together and call it butterbeer.)
We both kid that it was my ride to Hogwarts. LOL I still keep thinking it that way. It was about to land or approach us but of course we ran away. Idk it just made me laugh. That day was so Harry Potterish. :))))

Crossposts: http://daichin.livejournal.com/20725.html

Sometimes, when you already have enough of love of a person close to you...

Sometimes, when you already have enough of love of a person close to you...

You will just found out that you're already pushing them away.

Current Mood: cold
Current Location: Intramuros Manila
Crossposts: http://daichin.livejournal.com/20247.html

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080712

Yesterday is unforgettable. I never thought of actually walking/swimming in flood. LOL. Really, that was the first time I did it.
It's not that I disgust floods, no. It's just that my parents never let me do such thing..
When I was a kid, my dad will not hesitate to carry me until we found a higher ground or a safe place to walk. But now, I have to do all these things and deal with them :)))
This is sooo my friend's fault. He pushed me and there... LOL I just keep on blaming him and throwing words like "how could you do this to me, my family protected me all my life..., and such" HAHAHA But I really had fun. Only if there's no fld work report (supposed to be passed today), I could laugh my ass out there without holding back. :)))))))) Luckily, today's classes are suspended so no reports and no quizzes.

On the other side, some of my fellow countrymen are facing really great challenges right now. Let us all pray for the nation's safety. May God bless us all.

Crossposts: http://daichin.livejournal.com/20220.html

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072412

I just fucking deactivated my account so that I can escape for a while. Sorry.
I will never unfriend or block you unless you asked me to.

I don't/I can't/I won't erase people in my life that easily, especially when I had a lot of good memories with them. Sure I had problems with my other friends before too.. but that doesn't mean I don't want them in my life anymore. Problems may always come along the way - but it'll make you stronger and wiser.

In this situation I fully understand what you mean. Masyado kasi akong naging komportable sayo, ang kapal ng muka ko.
And for that, I am really sorry.
For me, this kind of problem is just like the ones I have before. I know things will go back to normal again. You're just mad. It will go away soon.

But I am wrong. You're too mad that you want to delete me in your life too. But it's fine, I understand. I will return the things I borrowed even if you do that.

P.S.:
I can unfriend you, but I can never block you. Sorry if you asked me to block you, I won't do it. Block me instead if you wish.

Current Mood: melancholy
Crossposts: http://daichin.livejournal.com/19796.html

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I can't blame you if you already have enough of the troubles I caused you. I understand your feelings, and I am sorry for making you feel that way. I also respect whatever your decisions will be in that matter.

2 years ago, I witnessed how you managed to stand up even the people around you are jerks and bullshits. And because of that I admired you, and I started dreaming of becoming your friend. There come a time that I felt you dnt like me, I still forced myself on you.
That's why I gave you kumo no yuri's. That's the first time you hugged me, I was shocked I didn't know you're doing silly stuffs like that too.

Anyway I am just saying this to let you know why I wanted you to become my friend. And because of that, I don't want to hurt you anymore.

There is one thing I need to confess to you before we go in different paths.

I consulted a friend when I saw your wallpost. And that I said to him, "My definition of having a best friend is way too selfish." Akala ko pwedeng ako lang ng ako, hindi pala pwede yun. May sarili ka nga rin palang buhay. I've only realized it now. Sorry for abusing your kindness.
Then my friend told me, "pwede naman yun e. kung talagang close kayo." It is clear to me that this is not the right answer to my questions. Sorry Friend! But in someway, he has a point.

Dear, I just realized that I cannot drink even just a can of beer with you. You'll hate that. What else would've happen if I asked you to drink tequila with me. I cannot do that to you. You haven't heard the story of my exes. There is a lot of things I haven't told you because I am too afraid that you will never look at me the way you looked at me before. My point is we both don't know each other yet.

I think being a bestfriend is quite a hard job. Remember you asked me why I don't want a boyfriend? This. This is a very good example of the reason why I don't want a boyfriend. I don't know how to handle relationships. I am too irresponsible and immature when it comes to these things. Sorry. But I hope we can still be friends someday. :D

P.S:
Dear, I am one of the things you don't deserve.

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I went home to my hometown last night. My bestfriend called me then I asked her to spend the night in our house. It was a fun night.
LOL My haircutting-skills are still here. XD She wanted to have a hime-cut (Yuko Ichihara and most of the clamp's characters have that style.)
You must already know what happened. :DD

Puta hirap magenglish msyado kong naddistract ng sharks sa National Geographic. Tagalog muna. Next time na magenglish. HAHA

E kase yung bespren kong taga-UP e 10am ng umaga pasok. Tapos umalis kami ng bahay ng mga 8:15 siguro.

Nasubukan mo na ba magpalipad ng isang libong piso?
Grabehan. Nasa pinakdulo kasi ako ng jeep. Tapos bnuklat ko wallet ko, BOOOM! biglang lumipad ang mahiwaga kong isang libo na gstong gstong kumawala. grabe ehh. Sayang ung benteng binayad namin sa jeep. Bespren ko pa naman ngbayad. Pero sabi nga niya, mas mahala yung isang libo. GRAAAAAAAABE talaga ung feeling na tumalsik un tapos nakkita ko pa in action kum pano siya liparin at tangayin ng jeep. Tapos hnd ko alam ggawin iaannounce ko sana dun sa jeepney driver na baba ako kaso bigla kong nakita yung muka ni Lovely. Hahaha siguro mga 12 meters na layo namin bago ko nasabing isang libo ko ung nilipad >_<" Taray pa dun pa sa gitna ng kalsada nagpahabol. Syempre nahabol naman namen. Putek makikipagpatayan ako! Pera yun! Laking halaga non!!!!!!!
Tengene daming kapalpakan ng pamumuhay ko eh. Atleast hindi ako perfect. XD

Tapos, naki'sit-in pa ko sa klase niya. HAHAHA! astigin no. Di ako nahalata. =))))) Di ko din nakita si Potato ni Lovely.

Tapos bumili kami ng damit sa mga stores malapit dun. Mura kase, e mahilig din kasi ako sa mga ganong store. :3
edi ayun na ansayasaya na ng mga nangyayari. Kwentuhan na never ending.

Pagkatapos pmunta kami SM kasi wala syang klase dun sa huli nyang subject. Mehehe. Tapos dito po muli naulit ang hindi naasahang trahedya. Masyadong masaklap pero tinadhana talagang mawalan kami ng pera. Magcacash-out kasi sya ng pera sa gcash kaso aun ngkamali sya ng number na tinayp. T___________T Goodbye 450! Walang isang libo kung walang 450! Nakakadepress. Hindi ko pera yun pero nalulungkot ako! Mabaliw baliw na ko sa booksale feel ko lasing na naman ako.

Owellpapel.. sabi nga nila hindi pedeng puro saya lang. Kelangan mo parin minsan malungkot.

Overall nagenjoy talaga ko! :)) Di ko akalain makakagawa pa ulit ako ng maraming kalokohan kasama sya. HAHAHA. napakatino kasi niyang nilalang. XD Sayang di ko naparamdam na nageenjoy ako! Next timeee MoA eye! :)))))))))))))))

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Miss-no-good

So here it is. I am officially abandoning my LJ account, and I am done importing my old entries from daichin@lj to my new journal wingardium_mauricia here at dreamwidth. Also I will not be using stannum_jump dw account since it is only meant for fangirling and I am not a fangirl now so...

Okay. If you haven't noticed yet, "mauricia" is a part of my username which, of course came from my real name, Maurice, this means that this journal will be purely about myself or things that involves me.

So what's up with the dramatic title?
What's up - is that it is true. I once thought that I am just a jack-of-all-trades-master-of-none kiddo but I realized I wasn't and it is far different from miss-no-good. It took me this long to realize what my real problem is. Truth hurts, eh? :D

I went to our campus minister a week before our final examinations.. it was then that I realized that I am too small and my competitions are too tough that I feel like everything I want to have and become are just mere delusions. I have to quadruple my efforts in order to match their effortless masterpieces. If you will ask me if I am sure in what I want, my answer will honestly be yes. But I don't how long will I stand for that answer. But as of now.. Yes, I want to be an architect.

I talked to my mum too, I told her how insecure I am to that new comer who happens to have the same surname as me. Mom, I don't want to get beaten by a new comer. Because there's a 85% possibility that he will. What I don't want to happen is that people from our department will ask him/me if we're related, then the comparison will start. I don't want that to happen. I don't want to be compared with someone younger than me. I have to be good, I have to be the model, I have to be the right one, the smart one!

My real friends also know how I hate perfect people. And my cousins.. well uh, father-side (Yup, the Cerezo side) they are my absolute definition of "perfect" It is not that I hate them because they did something wrong to me (the other side are the ones who usually bully me, which makes them imperfect) I hate them because I am jealous of everything that they have.. I mean, they are.. flawless, intellectual, talented, modest and still humble and most of all GOOD LUCK. If only I have one or two of those I would be fine. I hate them because they pressure me, I get compared at all times and I am too tired of hearing it.
So here's the story, yesterday morning my mum got a call from one of my uhh, cousin? aunt? idk what relation we have but anyway it's not important (father side) and so confused why is she the one who was called and not my dad. Long story but my dad changes his number for like every year.. don't ask why, I don't know either. Okay going back to the call, they invited us for lunch. My brother and I, at that moment, had a common ground. Both of us are not comfortable talking to those relatives of ours. True, I played with some of my second cousins when we were kids but who knows.. people change.
Sad thing is I thought they will be proud at me because I AM A CEREZO and I am taking architecture in MAPUA. Based on their facial expressions they think it's normal. They didn't even smiled at me. They are more happy when they heard that my other cousin is studying in Cavite State University. Well I guess I didn't mind, we're not close at all. Until my cousin (note: I am the youngest granddaughter of both sides, my cousins' ages are 30+) said that her wife has a nephew taking Chem Eng in Mapua and in his graduating year.
I am too scared that the topic of me-getting-5s will be brought out. Fortunately, it wasn't. But I think somehow they knew. Because they talked about subject pre-requisites and such. I needed to go out. Happily, it is not enough reason for me to lose my appetite :)

Truth is, I just have no choice but to accept my failure in Graphics 3, but seriously it's breaking my heart still. A slap on my face saying that I don't belong because I don't have the skills. I am not really sure what's the reason why am I still holding on.. but I keep on praying and asking God not to let me give up.

Speaking of hating perfect people. I found someone again, that i decided to call perfect. Because I am soooo hating him for everything he have! And idk because I think I like him but I feel like I want to puke when I am saying that. Let's just say what I am feeling now is what Annabeth feels when she first met Percy. He is good at academics, logic, and sports! Damnit I'm hating him more and mooooore. I am too intimidated, I feel so small when he is around and it hurts my pride. Maybe I could really like him if I am in the same level as him. I never felt this smaaaaall since I met him. The feeling like you want to disappear when he is talking to you because you feel like you're too stupidd. If only I had a chance, I'd kill him in my own little way.

I want too talk mooooore. But my wrists are kind of getting numb already.. so I'll leave it for a while. Good day moon!

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Grabe salamat. Pasado na ko sa lahat this term :)))))

Medyo mamaya ko na siguro ipopost yung gusto kong sabihin. Nawala ako sa mood eh. Haha! Magmula ngayon ppilitin ko na ulit magenglish sa mga entry ko. Pkiramdam ko kase nawalan na ako ng intelek sa english. Nung huling nagreport ako sa SS ni isang english word walang pumasok sa isip ko kahit nakasulat na sya sa kodigo ko. Gusto ko kasing maging natural, ung kunyare kausap ko lang si prof at sila classmates, kaya mas maganda kung hindi ako mabubulol eh ewan ko hindi lang siguro ako prepared. Pero never naman kasi ako naging prepared. HAHA! pinagaaralan ko lang kasi kung ano isasagot ko hindi kung paano ako sasagot. Anyway.. maiba, ayung na nga! Susubukan ko ng magenglish. Siguro ung sinsabi kong madrama kong post englishin ko. Hohohoho.

Punta pa ko school mayamaya. Grabeeeee goodluck sakenn. :D

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ISA PO AKONG SELOSA.

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Sorry kung hindi ko pa naaupdate tong journal ko, kasi nakalagay padin sa about me ko "fangirl". Imma update it sooon.

Ayun. Nung isang araw pa ko may gustong sabihin Dear LJ. Kaso nakakalimutan ko pag nakkita ko fb ng crush ko. Nyahaha! Siguro ipopost ko nalang yung dramang yun pagtapos ko magenroll or makita grades ko. :))

Nakakabadtrip. Ewan ko ba. Suwail lang talaga siguro akong anak. Pero kasi pag nainis ako hindi na po ako nabibili ng kahit ano. Naalala ko lang dati nung sinusumpong ako nung bata ako, tapos ung mga tito at tita kasama ni mama ibibili na daw ako ng power rangers action figures sabi ko ayaw ko kahit gusto ko talaga, lakas ng topak e, may S. Ewan ko basta alam ko sa sarili ko kahit gano ko kagusto un di padin ako matutuwa. Hahaha! Lalo pa kong maasar. Hindi naman kasi ako ganun kababaw ang kaligayahan ko. Anyway. Wala lang nabadtrip lang talaga ako. Okay Goodbye. See you soon!

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Wala. Natripan ko lang naman na istalk ng major major ang profile. Pati buhay niyo ng ex mo nahalungkat ko pa. Wahahaha.
Major major procrastination na to, hindi pa ko gumagawa ng homework sa math13. Ehh ewan ko. Nakaktamad. Mapeperfect ko naman un pag sinipag ako! HAHAHAHAHAH! :)))))) Baka mamaya sipagin na ko, mapeperfect ko na. Tae feel ko para akong lalake magblog. Pero anyway. this is me this is real.. ika nga ni Enrique Gil sa commercial ng Sprite "eto ako eh"

E ayun na nga. Natripan kong magstalk. At napatunayan ko sa sarili kong hindi talaga ako feeler! Totoo ang mga nakkita ko at hindi ako nagiilusyon lang.
Classmate ko kasi si Voldemort dba nga nung 2nd term. E nung sinabi nung kaibigan ko na kantahin ko daw yung flavor of life (ost ng hana yori dango) kasi lagi ko daw yun kinakanta (e ang alam ko, wala nmn akong kinakanta na kanta ni Utada Hikaru sa school.) tapos ginatungan pa ng kaibigan ko na katabi naman ni Voldemort na maganda daw boses ko (e syempre pa-kebs nya lang yon para lang din siguro mapansin ako ni Voldemort. tengene kinikilig akooooo!) Tapos pagkatapos nilang sabihin yunnnn nakita kong tumingin siya sakin kasi tumingin din ako sakanya!!!!!! :> e kasi nga dba katabi nya ung kausap ko so may chance akong pumuslit ng tingin. EHHHHH. syempre binaliwala ko lang yung tingin nyang parang naamaze na kinakanta ko yung flavor of life.. inisip ko nalang na napatingin sya sakin kasi nga tumingin ako sakanya.

PERO NAPROVE KO NGAYON NGAYON LANG MGA 5MINS AGO? NA HINDI TLGA AKO FEELER AT NAAMAZE TALAGA SYANG ALAM KO YUNG FLAVOR OF LIFE. (kahit nung mga panahong un hnd ko pa alam lyrics XD) BAKIT AKO NAGING SURE NA SURE? KASI UNG EX NYA PALANG PINAKAMAMAHAL NYA SA LAHAT NG NAGING EX NYA MAHILIG SA HANA YORI DANGO. HUTAENA D KO ALAM KUNG MATTUWA AKO O HINDI. yoko na nagugutom tuloy ako. hnd ako inaantok pero gsto na ng katawan ko matulog. Paano na math13? hindi na ko maggising neto. Siguradong wala din sagot ung kasama kong walang kwenta kasama. HAHAHAHAHA. shet lang talagaaaa. More to come. sa pgkakatanda ko tatlong beses niya ko tinignan eh.
O sya ung isa nabigyan ko na ng meaning. Basta yun yon. Naalala nya ex nya. Saklaaaaaap! NAGUGUTOM AKO LALOOOO!

Sige naa wala na akong caffeine supply, kailangan ko na ulit pakiligin sarili ko para d ako makatulog hangga't wala pa kong nggawang HW sa math13.

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Alam mo kung magaling ka talaga, hindi mo naman na yon kailangan ipagmalaki! Bakit ba ang yabang mo? gusto mo magkaron ng fans? Hindi mo ba alam na lalo kang mawawalan ng taong hahanga sayo dahil sa kahambugan mo! Kasi ganon nmn talaga yyun ehh. Hindi yun sa pagiging mabait o humble or whatever, kasi kung magaling ka na.. okay so anong bago? regular ka o ngayon? :))) Gaya ng sinabi ko, hindi mo naman kelangan ipalantsakan sa madla na magaling ka kasi lalo ka lang nagmumukang cheap. Sa totoo lang natatawa ako sayo, naawa din ako sayo. At sa sobrang galit ko naiiyak ako sayo, mixed emotions. Nakakabaliw.
Oo matalino ka. Pero you're just book-smart. Grabe hindi ko alam kung alam mo ba talaga ibig sabihin ng salitang mature. Hindi ko sinasabing mature ako. Pero inaamin ko, na tama lang ang mga kinikilos at ginagawa ko para sa age ko. Hindi childish. Hindi mature. Kaya hindi ako pumapatol sa ka-childish'an mo. Hindi ko nga alam bakit ako nagpapaapekto e, pero ang alam ko lang na dahilan kum bakit ko to pinopost e dahil sa galit ako dahil naoffend ako. Tangina. Akala mo lagi akong gv? Kung sobrang taas ng expectation ng parents mo, ganun din sakin. At ganun din sa lahat. Gago mo. Wala kang isip. Kung hindi ka lang book-smart maiisip mo to eh, isipin mo, nappressure ka kahit regular ka pa e papaano pa kaming hindi?

At nahiya naman ako sa panglalait mo ng archi lettering ko ha? if I know dre, if I knowww! :))))))))) akala mo lang maganda ung lettering mo sa plates mo. Masama ako? Maldita? HAHA! E sa binabalik ko lang naman kung ano pinaparamdam sakin ng tao.
Hindi kita pinaplastik. Hindi kita binaback-stab! Una, pinakikisamahan kita, Kahit winawalanghiya mo ako okay lng sakin kasi ganun ka lang talaga, pero pag wala akong gnagawa sayo at nanahimik ako wag mo kong wawalanghiyain. Baka minsan hindi ako makapagpigil at masapak kita.
Sunod, hindi kita binaback-stab. Sadyang first time kong magalit ng sobra na naiyak ako at kelangan ko ng comfort ng mga kaibigan kaya ko sinasabi sakanila. Lahat sila nagoffer na gagantihan ka nila. Wag kang magalala, sabi ko pabayaan ka nalang nila.

Pero alam mo, sobrang laking kasalanan kasi neto eh, magalit sa isang tao kasi sa totoo lang angsarap mo talagang saksakin. Akala ko pa naman may takot ka sa Creator. Bakit parang wala kang moral? Parang hindi ka edukado, mahilig ka lang yumabang ng yumabang para ipagmalaking marami kang alam.

At ayon hindi ako nagsimba ngayon kasi hindi pa ko nagkukumpisal at alam ko kasing mgkakasala pa ko ulet dahil galit na galit padin ako sayo. Sa totoo lang kinasusuklaman kita. Sarap mong durugin! Tadtadin ng pinong pino. Masakit ba? Aktwali ganyan din nararamdaman ko ehh.

At tska okay lang naman sakin un e, malay ko ba kung nadala ka lang ng conversation mo, at ng imosyon mo kaya hindi mo napigilang ipagmalaki na regular ka. Okay lang SANA, kaso alam mo yun nabadtrip na ko, hindi ka man lang nagparamdam na nakokonsensya ka na at nahihiya ka lang magsorry. E hindi eh, makapal talaga muka mo at proud ka sa ginagawa mo. I wonder kung paano ka pa nakaktulog kahit 30 mins lang.

HINDI MO BA NAIINTINDIHAN TEH?! Kung maraming galit at may ayaw sayo! Baka ikaw ang mali! Magisip isip ka naman. Potangina oh!

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So today's Friday the 13th and North Korea's rocket launching failed.

But I thought, since the launching was a failure.. this will start a new fire. I mean North Korea hurt their pride, they wanted to deliver to us that that they are powerful and yet such a shame they just failed to do it. And so I am being hysterical, thinking that they probably launch another one next time, a real one to prove us that they really have the power, so we won't laugh at them.

Funny, I don't trust USA or any country's protection. I mean, they might save us. But how? What will they want us to do in return?
If that N.Korea's rocket was launched successfully what could've happen? What if it's not really a satellite and it is really a missile that will hit the Philippines? South Koreans and Japanese forces planned to blow any flying object/s that will hit their vicinity. BUT HOW ABOUT US? WE DON'T HAVE SUCH TECHNOLOGY. WE CAN'T SAVE OURSELVES. WE CAN'T PROTECT OUR OWN LAND.

I don't believe on the 2012-end-of-the-world-thingy, but I'm afraid that I am having this feeling that there will be a WW3 this year.

North Korea's next launch hitting the Philippines, thousand deaths, UN getting mad at N.K, U.S. bombing NK for revenge, Japan and S.K getting ready battle, China bombing U.S back then the whole world will participate. For a third country like us, what will happen? Our lives might be saved, we might live, we might be safe.. but we will never stop owing something to the other countries.
I know I'm being too imaginative but I have to write these down so that I can calm myself.

The point is, WE CAN'T STAND ALONE WITHOUT OTHERS HELP. I mean, ofc even if we are wealthier we still need help but we don't have to cling on them too much.. WHY ARE WE BEING INDEPENDENT? It's because of those corrupt politicians and corrupt government, and yes I will never stop throwing them all the blame until they change. I believe they will. But I might die hating them too. FOR THOSE CORRUPTS, YOUR MONEY AND YOUR ARROGANCE WILL NEVER SAVE YOU IF THE COUNTRIES START TO THROW MISSILES TO EACH OTHER. HAVING MONEY TO FEED YOUR FAMILY IS ENOUGH! I KNOW MY COUNTRY IS RICH! WE JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO MANAGE OUR MONEY WELL.

/and now I feel so horrible, my hands are trembling because the person that I am pointing out on my last entry PMed me. So I have to end this. DAMN I CAN'T CALM MYSELF. I. AM. TOO. AFRAID

Anyway thanks for reading. I am not being patriotic at all. For the thousandth time, I AM JUST TRYING TO CALM MYSELF. I have ADHD.. that's a joke :D

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It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend

I GET SO DEPRESSED WHENEVER I VIEW YOUR PROFILE. But I always want to see how're you doing. I want to delete you! But I can't!!!!! WILL YOU DO ME A FAVOR AND DELETE ME INSTEAD? YOU KNW WHO YOU ARE! SINCE YOU'RE THE ONE WHO PUSHED ME AWAY.
THERE'S NO REASON TO BE FRIENDS IN A SOCIAL NETWORKING SITE IF WE'RE NOT REALLY FRIENDS IN REAL LIFE IS THERE? I DON'T DESERVE TO BE YOUR FRIEND. And you don't want to get hurt anymore. You get too tired easily. But I'm tired too, because you gave up on me and maybe that's what you really want. Maybe you really don't want me as a friend. I can't read your mind. You're unpredictable! My little powers don't work on you. But I'll tell you, if the situation will be REVERSED I will forgive you! Because I will always look on the past and remember how you always helped me, how you helped me to be in your review class for UPCAT, when you gave me red spider lilies you bought in ebay, how you helped me to cosplay. WELL I WISH EVERYTHING COULD BE REVERSED! SO THAT EVERYTHING WILL BE EASY. Look I am not rubbing the things that I did for you, because the truth is, I did it all for myself, to satisfy myself because I always want to impress you! I always want to make you happy! And when you asked me if I can be your bestfriend, it made me really happy. AND I'M REALLY SORRY FOR BREAKING MY PROMISE AND MADE YOU FEEL UNIMPORTANT! I HOPE YOU'RE GETTING MY POINT HERE. Well I understand you if you hate me. Anyway, "It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend"

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Today I will stop blogging about Priestess and the person that I keep on talking about in my past blogs in tumblr.
I might even stop blogging as well.....or maybe jst in tumblr. It's just that, eversince, I've always doubts if I can post something related to my life in that website. Thought I might give it a try, and now I'm done.
I think some people there have already forgotten what real blog is.

If you are a friend of mine in LJ, you'll surely understand the reason why I blog. And I don't call this a blog, It's a journal.
There are things you can't express, things you can't say to anyone even your bestfriend, things that you have to yell the hell out, and I will all just have to type it out, post it and I will feel totally better.
Talking to my journal is my latest discovery on how can I make myself feel better. (I just got tired of cutting my hair short.)

But when the time came that I need lots of advises (because friends at school keeps saying "it's okay, you'll get over it, you'll be fine" and your bestfriend will tell you "just don't think about it")
WHEREIN FACT IS.. I KNOW I WILL BE FINE, I KNOW I'LL GET OVER IT, AND SOON I WILL JUST LAUGH WHEN I LOOK BACK.
BUT WHAT I NEED IS THE ANSWER TO: HOW CAN I EVER NOT THINK ABOUT IT? WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO TO MOVE ON.

Really, I've been talking to the people I trust (I trust every friends of mine, and it doesn't mean I get into a group I will not come to my other friends anymore) and whom I thought would understand me... but turns out, I think I just lose them.

And I feel like am I too attention-seeking? You see I tried not to cry. But I can't help it. I'm a crybaby, show me a meaningful movie and I'll cry too.

But before I posted my last-post-in-tumblr, I said to myself "Can I be selfish, just this time. Blogging is a freedom. I will never care on what people would say."
Well when I said people, I meant strangers. But I think a friend of mine (whom I thought that understands me the most) turns to be mad at me - well I think it can't be helped, maybe she's sick of me. And I did care. I never wanted to cause disappointments. But please, WORLD. Just for once please understand me?! I am trying to be okay here! Can you just give me a problem one at a time? I am no superman. And if I am.. my friends are my Kryptonite.

I never wanted to explain. That's not my thing. My friends know that. And so I type anything I want, and shout my heart out.....
I don't seek attention. Anyone can ignore my posts. (Though I am thankful to those who keeps on reading even it its too long.)
And it's up to you if you'll read it. If you didn't like it, then close the tab, and read other entries or just do something that will make you happy.
You don't have to say bad things on someone's post especially when you know the person has his/her own problem. You have yours too.. why don't you just solve it and let others solve theirs.

Just a piece of my mind (quoted frm a frnd)

BAKIT AYAW KO SA CYBERCRIME LAW?

HAHAHAHAHA!

"MAHAL MU NA NO?"

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PRIESTESS, I MISS YOU

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Sometimes, when you already have enough of love of a person close to you...

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It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend

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